Hah hah hah.
I want to dye my hair.
They say, 'The only way to get rid of an obssession is to get a new one.' And so I have.
Gazette.
Don't you think they're damn cute?
Hah hah hah.
I do.
I'm currently obssessing over them. Hyde has been put on hold. I'm expanding my Jrock library to Alice 9 and rentre en soi thanks to one very nice Jrock friend introduced to me by my cousin.
Thank God.
I have just realised just HOW filled with angst I have become. But, I WILL NOT CONFORM! I will not be one of those teenagers who will just sink into their own thoughts and depression, thinking that they are the very center of the Universe and that everyone on the face of this earth should pity them and help them.
I refuse.
But I'm finding it so hard.
I'm wasting my life away, as I sit here typing, I know, I know, I know. But what CAN I do? I can draw, but what difference does it make? I can't do ANYTHING unless I'm given a chance. There are people out there who cannot reach my standard who are more successful than myself. Why? Because they were lucky. I'm trying, I really am, I'm thinking, thinking of ways to make my life that's just about to truly start work. No, not just work, I want to make it work MY WAY, but it's not that easy, now I see. It's hard to try to feel happy everyday. To put on a fake smile everytime someone talks to me so I don't get them to worry, so I don't get them to share my troubles.
Where did everyone go?
Excuse my rambling. I'm not even making sense to myself nowadays.
No, not even myself.
”仲間”という者は、本当にいるの？で、この人達は私の心の弱くになった時、どこに行った？
