And without you is how I disappear, and live my life alone.
Well, so it has been.
I'm not going to say exactly who I'm referring to, because it's hard enough just thinking about it.
I went for Red Camp at Ngee Ann Poly today.
........It was TIRING.
In fact, I'm so tired I can barely move.
And they are SO UNFAIR. The stupid quiz where they gave away free movie tickets was rigged, I swear. They said "Everybody has a fair chance" when they really meant "The MCs will pick whoever suits their liking." I was sincerely unhappy. And when we went on the tour thing of the IT block, they didn't let us explore the lightbox room. But I'm too tired to say more. My throat is really dry from shouting the entire day. I met a few Primary school friends back there... But only like about three? haha. It rained really heavily, and that completely dampened my mood, and so did my dad, but hey, it's alright, cause he always does it ANYWAY. I'm.......ADAPTING. Heh, it's taken me fifteen years to get where I am now, give it about five more and I'll be immune.
But don't worry about me, dear diary. Because nobody's reading this anyway. Well, that's just me. I'm not popular, I'm not pretty, I'm not smart. I don't have a goal in life. I am harboring thoughts of suicide right now.
But don't worry about me, dear diary.
I'll be fine.
I'm always fine.
Caine.
XD. I am in bliss at the moment. I just finished most of my major papers today! 'O' LEVELS ARE ALMOST OVER!! *cheers till her arms are so tired they drop off* Right. I'm going for Grad night! I'm going on a Jap Drama marathon after thursday! I'm drunk on Drawn Together! I love Xandir! Hahaha! It's so funny. Seriously. I'm not one for perverted humor, but I actually like Drawn Together. Maths was okay today. Was it becuase I studied? Hahaha. I'm TOTALLY spending a night at an arcade after 'O's. NO ONE WILL STOP ME OR I'LL GUT THEM WITH SPOONS IN THEIR SLEEP AND LAUGH ABOUT IT. haha. Yes. Topazians are having a gathering, I believe! At the botanical gardens. A tea party. With animal masks. I wouldn't miss it for the world. XD. I'm thinking of dye-ing my hair after my exams.....cutting it a 'lil shorter again too. Wanna get coloured contacts as well. Haven't decided what colour though. Oh well. We'll see. I LOVE MCR. Yes. Right. Ciao then.
Caine.
Can you believe I haven't updated for so long? Well I can. Hmm. I'm still cramming for Math and SS, but I made time for this when I realised I haven't touched blogger for so long it's no longer on my collection of net addresses when I press the little button that says 'down' on my address bar.
Cassandra didn't know I had a blog util two days ago. *gasp* I thought she knew! I really did! And I'm so sorry Xueting, I DON'T KNOW YOUR BLOG ADDRESS! *breaks down in floods of tears* I CAN'T FIND THE STUPID PHOTOS EITHER!! *decides to hang oneself* I'm really sorry! : (
I'm listening to Promised Land now, by L'arc. And what is the sentence "Devil's walk in Strawberry fields" even REMOTELY amusing? Sure, one pictures little red people with horns prancing around a field with giant red fruits, but THAT'S NOT THE POINT. Cassandra was laughing when she heard HYDE sing that! *is heart-broken*. Oh well. I've already sat for half of my papers!! Yay! I'm going to see my Primary school peeps soon enough! I'm missing Sam especially. Hahaha! A tea party in the Botanical gardens with animal masks sounds promising. Don't you think?
I have NO IDEA what paper I'm sitting for the day after tomorrow. HAHAHA. What joy. And I'm an O level student.
Someone slap me, please.
Caine.
